Tattered Dreams

On New Years Eve I drew a card from the Enchanted Oracle. The card I got was not what I was expecting! This is what "Tattered Dreams" has to say:

"Something that you believed in and counted on has unraveled. A belief has ceased to be true for you anymore. A person has proven false. An outcome has fallen far short of the expectation. Whatever has happened, it has had reverberating effects in your world. It is as if the foundation has been shaken and everything on it has fallen. It is unspeakably distressing, but it has happened nonetheless. It is fortunate, though, that the wheels that create dreams do keep spinning in spite of tragedies. And the same energy that may destroy something can also provide the energy to rebuild. And in the midst of tattered dreams, there is always a butterfly that will give you hope, if only you can see it."

This could not be more true!!! On New Years Day, my flat was burgled. I was unfortunate enough to be home when it happened. They came in and they smashed me in the face, took all my money and phone and whatever else was worth anything. I had to get stitches in my lip. I spent all night at the police station giving my statement. Now I am thinking about moving out of that flat and finding somewhere safer to live! But what I love about the card I drew, is the "butterfly" part. On New Years Eve my best friend gave me a charm for my charm bracelet... and it was a silver butterfly! Now every time I look at that butterfly charm, I remember to have hope for the future.

Here are a set of questions that Barbara Moore offers in her guide book Destiny's Portal, along with my answers:

1. Start with the base: what belief specifically was destroyed? How did it happen? Why did what happened actually destroy the belief?

The belief in safety and security within one's own home. I was burgled. The fact that intruders were so easily able to enter my home destroyed my sense of security.

2. If specific to a person or institution, has it affected your beliefs about people in general or similar institutions? What other beliefs are affected by this particular one being destroyed? Why and in what way?

I do feel suspicious when I see men of similar appearance. It makes me feel nervous. I worry about dangerous people wandering the streets. 

3. How is your life going to be different now? Examine all the changes. Will there be positive and negative changes or only negative?

I am going to be more cautious. I am going to move to a safer location. The move will be stressful and difficult but I look forward to finding a better place to live.

4. Do you know other people who have experienced this or something similar? How did it change them? Do you think the change was beneficial or not? What can you learn from their experience?

I have spoken to people who have also been burgled in the past, and they respond that although it shook them up, they were able to recover from the incident. I think it will teach me to be more careful. I know that it is possible to feel at ease again. 

5. What new beliefs can fill the hole left by the current loss? Take the time to imagine, one by one, what your life would be like if you implemented each one. Which imagined future is most appealing? Why? Can you live by that belief?

Although I have lost the joy that I once felt in my home, I am sure I will find a new home to feel joyful about. I imagine it will take time to settle in to a new place, but it will be fun and interesting. I enjoy decorating and making a place feel special. I think it would be better to cut my losses and move on than to continue living somewhere with the memory of that event lingering in the air.

I'm looking at properties, and I have a limited choice based on what is affordable, but I know the right one for me is out there somewhere.