Skip to main content

Turning Over a New Leaf

So, I am settling into the new home, and realising the internet connection here is just awful, compared to what I'm used to. Hopefully I can do something about that. It just makes it very hard to watch or upload videos. Perhaps this just means that I should watch/upload less!

My new bedroom is primarily yellow, which is nice. Me and mum went and bought some long thick yellow/gold curtains for the bay windows. I'm hoping this will keep some noise and cold out. I'm surprised the heating actually works pretty well, considering it's a really old place with high ceilings and drafty windows. I'm slightly off the highstreet now, so it's not quite as noisy, but it's still fairly busy. I'm no longer living with my boyfriend, so my evenings are pretty solitary.

I've just returned from a wedding in Newcastle, which was both lovely and sad. It was great to see my family and celebrate a wonderful relationship, but sad to realise that my own relationship is coming to an end, and that I will not be planning a wedding as I thought I might be by now. I've been with my boyfriend for nine years and I figured that marriage would be on the cards soon. But this year it has gradually dawned on me that it's just not meant to be. He has been a good friend to me over the years and I hope we can continue to be on good terms. But I need to acknowledge that it's time to move on.

I really did not expect this time of year to be quite so dramatic! This is a big change in my life. It fills me with those mixed feelings of anxiety and excitement. Somebody new came into my life, and it feels as though they have come to teach me an important lesson. They have come to teach me how to open up and communicate. I am quite wary about maintaining my privacy with this blog (and videos and twitter and facebook) so I'm not sure quite how much I should say. But I know it's good for you to get things out in the open. It's good just to hear yourself say things outloud or to read your own words.

I've been getting to know this new person in my life, and finding lots of surprising things in common. We are planning a weekend together which should be lovely. I don't know where this is going but I'm trying not to question it and just enjoy each present moment.


Labels:

Comments

  1. Pagan by Instinct24 October 2012 at 14:03

    Trying not to sound too cliche here, lol, but when we need to, the universe will force us to clear out familiar, comfortable yet unfulfilling, things in our lives to make room for wonderful, possibly exciting, new experiences on the horizon that we may not have even recognized as opportunities otherwise. Just be present in every moment and enjoy them as they come. **HUGS**

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. OathBoundSecrets24 October 2012 at 23:57

      Thank you so much, this is exactly what I need to bare in mind!! :)

      Delete
  2. Anonymous28 October 2012 at 14:40

    Wishing you all the best and seasonal blessings. It sounds to me like the tides of the land are at work in your life :) I echo what the poster above said, the Universe moves things around so you need to see and meet those with who'm your path may travel with for a while, remember they are also on their own path and will be learning from you :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. OathBoundSecrets30 October 2012 at 10:39

      Thank you, yes I consider every person in my life to be a teacher, and I hope in turn they receive a lesson from me, in equal give and take, we change each other for the better. :)

      Delete

Post a Comment

Thank you for sharing your thoughts )O(

Popular posts from this blog

The Dorset Ooser

  A massive wooden head with snapping jaw mechanism, real horns and hair. Photo from 1883-1891.  The Dorset Ooser has possible connections to the horned costumes sometimes worn by participants in English Mummers plays. The etymology of Ooser is also disputed, with various possibilities available, but I think it's most likely the same as the Oss, a snapping skull paraded around during midwinter. The pronunciation is very similar, and it's simply a way of saying "horse" without pronouncing the h. These teeth-gnashing heads are also known as 'obby 'oss or hobby horse.  One use of the Dorset Ooser was to strike fear into villagers who were perceived as shameful. Usually the target was an unruly wife who had disobeyed her husband by raising her voice, scolding him, beating him, or cheating on him. A woman who was perceived as a bad wife was forced to ride backwards on a donkey or horse while the angry Ooser snapped his jaw at her and a crowd of villagers beat their...
Post a Comment
Read more

Decolonise

There is an interesting phrase I heard, that Britain colonised itself before the rest of the world. How can a country colonise itself? Well Britain was an island of many cultures, many nations, before the United Kingdom was created and a uniform British culture imposed on everyone here. Regional variations were extinguished, while amateur folklorists attempted to record the dying traces. What a huge sacrifice for the sake of homogenisation. To this day, we feel that one part of Britain is ruling over the rest, sucking up all of the wealth, leaving the rest of us impoverished. This is the same process of colonisation which was then inflicted upon other countries captured by the British Empire. I would say that London and the surrounding South East area is the "Imperial Core" of an Empire which still exists, although in a neo-colonial form.  Poka Laenui suggests five stages of decolonisation: Rediscovery and recovery Mourning Dreaming Commitment, and Action
Post a Comment
Read more

Back Again

I found my old blog by accident. I forgot all about it. Apparently I have to pay a subscription fee to be able to access the same features that used to be free. Maybe that's why I stopped blogging. I've been using instagram as a blog for a few years now. So it's been almost a decade since I last logged in here. What can I update you with? There's a little bit too much to say. I split up with the boyfriend I was blogging about last. He was a lovely guy, but it ran its course. I found a little studio flat in the centre of town and lived by myself for a year. That was a really nice experience. While I was there I met a new guy and started a whole new chapter. We moved to Weymouth in 2021. It will have been 4 years in August. The time has passed quickly. I turned 40 last year. I don't feel any older than when I was 30, but I feel frustrated that I could have done more with my time. The state of the world hasn't gotten any better, and I'm increasingly aw...
Post a Comment
Read more